The Worst 4 Letter Word




W-A-I-T. I hate that word. It should really be considered profanity in my opinion. Maybe it has something to do with me being so bad at it. In my last post I shared specific instructions the Lord gave me. To wait, to rest, and let Him handle things. Did I listen? Of course not. SMH. I thought I knew the ultimate outcome, and so I did what I do best, not wait. take action. Surprise surprise I look like a fool and end up back where I started. This time I’ll listen…hopefully. Why is it as humans we struggle with following direction so much? Or is that just me?

A few days ago Jesus took me to a riverside in a beautiful valley. The water sparkled like diamonds. We were sitting on the banks underneath a large tree talking. “Where is this?” I asked. “This is the river of gladness. You lost your joy, but it’s ok because you came back to me, and I’ll always help you find it again.” He replied. And with that He shoved me in the water! He’s such a prankster.

He jumped in as well and we both began laughing hysterically as we began splashing each other. Joy, pure joy. We both climbed out of the water and I was shimmering light. “Ah there you are.” He said. I looked like me again, full of light and love.

Psalm 46:4 The Passion Translation (TPT)

God has a constantly flowing river whose sparkling streams
bring joy and delight to his people.
His river flows right through the city of God Most High,
into his holy dwelling places.

“I’m sorry I didn’t listen Jesus.” I spoke with my head hung like a disobedient child. “It’s ok, I’m used to my children not listening to me.” He replied with a smirk. “Yes, but I don’t want you to have to get used to that with me. I’m going to listen this time.” I assured Him and He responded with: “Good thing is I’ll give you another chance…and another, and another.”

I wrapped my arms around Him. There is nothing I can ever do to deserve such grace and mercy. “Let me bless you” He said as he bowed my head so that he could kiss the crown of it. As he did rainbow light spilled from His lips and washed over me.

The next day as I was getting ready for work He spoke to me; “It’s time to stop relying on your medicine.” Now that one is going to require major faith on my part since I’ve been taking hormones and vitamins since being diagnosed as premenopausal 7 years ago. “Ok,” I reluctantly answered, “but I fully expect to have no fatigue or withdrawal symptoms as a sign of my healing”. And this time I listened. Over night I stopped taking :






Vitamin D, C, B complex

Omega 3


And I actually feel great. God is so, so good. And of course, He sends me two messages to confirm. These fell right in line with what He is trying to teach me. Transitioning me to a new phase in life. But first, waiting.

Psalms 130:5-6 “I wait for the LORD,  my soul waits, and in his word I hope; my soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen for the morning, more than watchmen for the morning.”

Bible Passages About Waiting

Psalms 27:13-14   I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living! Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!

Psalms 37:34  Wait for the LORD and keep his way, and he will exalt you to inherit the land; you will look on when the wicked are cut off.

Proverbs 3:5-6  Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

Isaiah 30:18   Therefore the LORD waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the LORD is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him.

Isaiah 40:31   but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

Lamentations 3:25   The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him.

Micah 7:7   But as for me, I will look to the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me.

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