A Love Warrior
It was 2016 when I had my first “encounter” with Jesus. I had known Him all my life, yet never had a truly personal relationship with Him. He always seemed like some distant holy figure I could never quite grasp. But when I resolved myself to do everything I could to know Him, His heart, and submit my life completely into His hands, that’s when He appeared to me.
I was thrilled to see Him, thrilled to advance spiritually to the next level. I spoke to Him; “Jesus, make me a WARRIOR! Let me slay demons and conquer evil in your name!”. I suppose I watch too many superhero movies. I assumed that God was making himself known to me to use me as a weapon, I must have some sort of dangerous cool mission I thought.
He smiled at me with the grace of a parent laughing at an impatient child. “First, you need to become love.” He responded. “Become love?” I thought… “That doesn’t sound very cool Jesus. Honestly that sounds kind of wimpy…” I wanted an important job, something fun and exciting, this seemed so basic to me, I tried to hide my disappointment.
Again He smiled with loving patience. “Taylor, Love is actually the most powerful force in the universe. Love is the greatest weapon.” I’m sure my puzzled expression said everything my mouth could not. Over the next several weeks we would meet regularly and He would continue my lessons in becoming love.
During one lesson on our mountaintop, Jesus held out his hand and a sphere appeared. It was solid and strong, unbreakable. “This is love.” He said. “It’s the foundation, the core.” He took his other hand and waved it over the sphere, as He did this the sphere grew a layer of new material. “This is kindness.” He waved His hand again, “This is justice". He did this again and again, waving His hand over the sphere and each time it grew a new layer of material. Each of the layers were different; kindness, justice, mercy, patience, holiness…
“Because love is at the core, this sphere is solid, it cannot break, it is strong. If you do not have love at the core, the sphere becomes hollow, easy to shatter. Love is the foundation, love is what everything else must be built on, otherwise it is all empty.”
I began researching the power of love and eagerly awaited our next session. As I researched, I found myself in the Bible.
God is love. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. 1 John 4:16
That’s it! I thought to myself. Love is the most powerful force because love is God! Of course, it all makes sense. God is light and love, God is THE most powerful being, force, energy in existence. Which means that LOVE is THE most powerful force in existence. To become love is to become like God, tapping into unmatchable power.
I need to become love, a love warrior. My quest began.
From here Jesus began to teach me the power of love and how to use it, specifically in the form of frequencies. What happens when God, who is love, speaks? Well when He spoke, the universe came into existence, the power of his voice, His frequency of love, created life. Woah.
Your words are so powerful that they will kill or give life, and the talkative person will reap the consequences. - Proverbs 18:21
So many verses of the Bible I grew up thinking were just metaphors to teach us how to be more Christlike. I was so wrong, many of them are literal, a roadmap to tapping into the greatest power on earth, a power that can create life or cause death, a power that we use every day unknowingly, our mouths.
As a christian, when we accept Christ, He lives in us and us in Him. So when we speak, we can use the most powerful force on earth unknowingly because it lives inside us. Suddenly I was keenly aware of the language not only coming out of my mouth, but going into my ears as well. The music I listened to, filled with cursing, slander, and filth. I was letting someone else speak this into my life by listening to it, what power was I subjecting myself to? What power had I used against others negatively?
It was clear that I needed to purify myself. I spent 3 days combing through my music, deleting over 10,000 songs that contained profanity and derogatory statements. I cleaned up my own language. I resolved to not watch any movie that used the curse “G-D”. Why this one specifically? God is the most powerful force, His name, is the name of the most powerful being in existence, it’s so holy that His original people (Jews) will not even write his name on paper nor say it aloud. Combine that power with the curse of “damn”. You’ve just created a deadly weapon, the most powerful name turned into a curse. Forget the disrespect part of it, that’s some bad joojoo I don’t want spoken over me!
He then led me to a brilliant Japanese scientist Dr. Masaru Emoto. He had breakthrough discoveries on the frequency of words and how they affected water. https://www.masaru-emoto.net/en/crystal/. During his experiments he would speak words like “Love, harmony, peace…” over freezing water, the result was the formation of beautiful water crystals. He then spoke words like “murder, evil, etc…” which led to distorted and deformed water crystals. This is evidence of the power of our words, they carry a frequency that affects life. Now take into account that your body is 90% water. Are you starting to get the picture now?
The same type of experiment has been repeated using plants instead of water, again with the same results.
Becoming love requires us to have the heart of the Father. Love everything and everyone, love as He loves.
For love completes the laws of God. All of the law can be summarized in one grand statement: “Demonstrate love to your neighbor, even as you care for and love yourself.”
- Galatians 5:14
It all comes down to this one thing, love. All the commandments, all the teachings, all the works, boil down to love. Love has to be the foundation of our lives and our intent, the center of our being and consciousness. If we start with love, everything else will take care of itself, it will all fall into place.
We can actually change the atmosphere using love, cause life and not death.
God began teaching me all this and more in 2016, because in 2018 my test would come. I would need this lesson to alter the rest of my life. After years of fighting and lawsuits with my ex, we came within 1 month of our final trial. I was watching a movie with my mom when a message dinged on my phone. He was in town and wanted to meet to resolve things outside of trial. My heart instantly hardened and resolved to not respond. He had his chance and didn’t deserve another. But then I remembered all my lessons in love. The Father of Love whispered to my heart of stone; try one more time. I agreed to meet with him. I prayed before our meeting to let love prevail, for the Holy Spirit to reside in me, to cause me to change the atmosphere to one of love. I arrived at the location, we met, after a tearful hug, we resolved all our issues, and we forgave one another. Not in my wildest dreams could I have expected a better outcome. Not only did all my prayers for my personal trial get answered, but God gave me closure through forgiving. The pain stopped, the struggle ended, and love won. God used the law of love to win the trial. Thank you father for preparing me for this moment.
Again in 2018 I experienced extreme pain and heartache by someone I trusted. By all natural human accounts I had every right to cut that person out of my life, I even resolved to do so. I deserve better I thought, I’m not going to be a doormat and be hurt like this. And then Jesus whispered in my ear “Is that what I should have done to you? When you lied to me, when you denied me and abandoned me, when you hurt me? Should I have cut you out instead of loving you through it? Should I have not given you grace and mercy when you didn’t deserve it?”
I hit my knees. Tears of shame and gratitude poured down my cheeks. I am supposed to love like He loves. Again the lesson of love saved me from cutting a precious person out of my life. God saved the relationship and is restoring it as we speak, because of love.
What do we do when we disagree with someone? When someone hurts us? Our natural human reaction is to retaliate, to defend at all costs. This morning Jentezen Franklin’s message summed it up. Start and finish with love. Before you react, before you engage, resolve to love.
My lessons are far from over, but they are evolving into a new phase now. Now that I know how to become love, it’s time for me to leave my mountaintop to love those in the valleys. My mission now? To change the world with love, one person at a time. I highly recommend reading my friend Bob Goff’s book; Everybody Always for the most basic yet enlightening example of becoming love.
During this Christmas season, I celebrate the birth of Love, Jesus. My best friend, savior, father, my heart and breath. Join me in choosing love, in becoming love, in changing the world with love. During the trials of life, the war waging on our heart and minds, join me in with a celebratory battle cry of victory, because love always wins, LOVE NEVER FAILS.
1 Corinthians 13:8-10 The Passion Translation (TPT)
8 Love never stops loving.[a] It extends beyond the gift of prophecy, which eventually fades away.[b] It is more enduring than tongues, which will one day fall silent. Love remains long after words of knowledge are forgotten.[c] 9 Our present knowledge and our prophecies are but partial,[d] 10 but when love’s perfection arrives, the partial will fade away.[e]